Where I’m at Today.

Well, let me tell you that I am NOT, stronger than that damn mirror. However, I am doing a hell of a lot better than I ever have been in my life. I am constantly obsessing over Insta reels, watching the progress of all the influencers that hit rock bottom like myself, and are now in the best shapes of their lives, eating amazing meals, counting macros and l telling all of us what we should be doing and what they did to get where they are at. I appreciate it actually. I try to take something from each person and see if I can apply something they are doing to my own progress. Sometimes I’m like, do these women not work? I wish I could be them, I want that for myself, but it’s SO hard-core.

I have a good routine going, but could it be better? Yes. I’ll be 44 in sixteen days. The goal my entire life as been to be skinny and look good in shorts and a bikini. The one thing that I am the most proud of is that, that is not my goal any more. I want to be stronger, fit. I do not want to be that old lady waiting for a wheel chair at the airport. I owe a lot of that motivation to my favorite Peloton instructor, Robin. She’s a bad ass. Just a few weeks ago I got a shout out from her for my 700th walk, I was so stoked.

I also owe a lot to my favorite Podcaster, Mel Robbins. I’ve fit listening to her podcast into my morning routine while I’m getting ready for work, at least 2 days a week. She’s had some smart people on there. Actually, one of my goals is to get this blog going and one day go on her show. I wrote it on a sticky note just like Kirsten Ferguson did, that’s how she became an instructor at Peloton. I mean, if it worked for her. Maybe it will work for me?

I’m not here because I have it all together, I’m here because I don’t. But I’m going to document what I can, more like vent, I suppose. I wore a dress to work today. That means I’ll be lifting it up in the mirror to critique my body every time I go to the bathroom. Ah, the struggle is real.